I don't know what's wrong with me...

I just wanted to say that I'm sorry...for everything. For not being with you, for being first angry at you, then hateful, then apathetic. Now, I just miss you. I don't know where you are or where you're going...I don't even know what you look like anymore. But the fact remains that you're my brother. I love you, and I miss you. I don't know how else to get in contact with you except through here...if you even still have the URL.

I'm tired of being angry at you. Now, I just want you to come home. I don't remember the last time I saw you...it has to have been two years at least...feels like longer.

Wherever you are, whatever you're up to, please be safe. That's all I can say. I'm praying for you. Don't do anything else stupid. It hurts not only you, but everyone around you.

I love you, Jacob.